After talking with my husband, I’m not as sure about consulate work as I once was. It still is very alluring, but I am trying to figure out some things. One is that I have cats. I am a very responsible pet owner. Not just because it is the “right” thing to do but because I genuinely love and care for my pets. I’m sort of wondering if I should “wait them out” (they are all over the age of 10) or put them in the care of a relative. I have heard that cats do not attach to people, they attach to places. Maybe they wouldn’t miss me. I’m not sure. I want to move when I graduate anyway, so I will be moving no matter what and they will have to get used to a new environment.
The second thing is my health. When I flew to Las Vegas my hands and feet swelled up really badly and I felt really bad. I worry about the medications I’m on, and will I be able to pass a medical test.
Another thing is my sister and nephew, but I could either 1. visit a lot or 2. get the visas! Charlie could be internationally educated.
I also worry that I have done things in my past that will preclude me from being hired by the government.
All of those things make me wonder if I am going in the right direction. I was thinking how I like to have a home, a place that is the same, that I can live in and feel comfortable in. I have a lot of things. A lot of books. A lot of clothes. All of those things are my responsibility and it makes me feel like I’m tied down to them. Is it an anchor or a ball at the end of this chain? Is that calling I’m always hearing around the corner or around the world?
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